Emotional Roller Coaster

So for the past week, I have cried every second that I have a moment to cry. I am just so overwhelmed! I have so much pressure with all the work I have to turn in and practice teaching. Now on top of everything else, I have anxiety about the final! We have two parts to the final. The first part includes 4 Essay Questions and we have three hours to complete it. The second part is an Oral Exam in which we have to present materials from each area in front of examiners which is also another three hours. I am losing it because I am so nervous!!! I have been reassured many times that practice teaching will help with the anxiety. We have to give 8 presentations to the children a day, and I am hoping that helps.

So today while my trainer was going over our work in class, I just got so emotional and was about to burst out crying. As soon as the group check was complete, I grabbed my bag and ran out of class and then began to cry. I am so overwhelmed I can't even explain how overwhelmed I am. Our course started in September and we graduate in May. I have three weeks following graduation in Maryland to complete my masters and this whole process took 8 months. Can you imagine! That is why I am losing it! We have over worked ourselves! I did not think I had this in me. It is insane the amount of work we have. I have dedicated myself to this course and nothing else. I have neglected my friends (sorry!!!) and many more things including my hair. My bangs are so long, I can barely see!


Okay let me stop there and tell you that if I did not have a passion for what I am doing, I would have quit months ago. Because of my love for Montessori and Dr. Montessori for creating this amazing method of teaching and all the incredible materials for children,I would not put myself through this. But honestly, Montessori is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo amazing and I really want everyone to know about it. The materials are so wonderful and I really wish my parents knew about Montessori while my sister and I were growing up. When I have children, they will all grow up to be Montessori children. When I graduate, I will share all the wonderful things about Montessori with you.

So to clarify, I am overwhelmed with the amount of work we have, but so excited and feel so lucky to have this oppourtunity! I can't wait to graduate and begin working with children. So all these emotinal roller coasters, hopefully will become peaceful soon.

Today we finished the last section in math, and do you know what that means? WE ARE FINISHED WITH PRESENTATIONS!!!!!! We are done! We have learned every material in the Casa and if I could guess a number, we have probably recieved 300 presentations with the materials and all of these presentations will be given to the children. So Exciting!!

So today, after I came home, Monica and I decided to go to Panera and work. I decided before we met that I was going to go on a little shopping spree because that always makes me feel better. So I ended up buying some of the cutest things and I feel much better now :)

When I got home, my Sephora package had arrived!!!!


Here is a little sneak preview of all my goodies :)



Isn't this adorable! I thought it was a dress, but it turned out to be shorts! I love it because I can actually wear it to practice teaching with a cute button up and tights :)



And...That is why I bought this top!!!



And.....This is the reason why I actually purchased it! I am in love with the back.


This is worth every penny! It's $30, but I would pay $100 for it! It is that amazing!


I found this necklace and could not resist. It was just so pretty!


And guess what else I found!!!! Ruffled tights!!!